Have been a really cranky mood for the past few days. Mood swings are coming and going as if they are my best friends. And i jolly well know what the reason is... to make things worst i have an extremely bad sorethroat now. Kinda reminds me of the days i had to endure when i took my toncils off via a surgery. FUCKING PAIN LAH CHEE BYE!

Stayed up whole night just to get my answer from her, well i got it. It was because she was busy and tired. To an extent of replying a text message to stop me from thinking so much was unachievable. I had no choice but to accept it although i didn't really wanted to deep down in my heart.

This is what a simple reply would do, it would calm me down.. stop me from thinking so much.. and also make me happy. It also allows me to stop worrying about you because i know nothing bad has happened when i am not around you. I know, i have no right to expect anything from you. That is why i can't say anything to show my displeasure.

What else can i say? i would very much comprehend actions like these if typing a text message takes 30 minutes, all i can do now is just tell myself YES it takes 30 minutes.That way i will feel better because i know you do not miss me as much as i miss you. And honestly i hate that feeling, because it sucks.

And yet, i have never thought of giving up well at least not yet. It's because i keep telling myself repeatedly that you are worth it, worthy for me to give a try over and over again. I could stay up the entire night just to talk with you for a simple 5 minutes, but if it was you ... would you even think about doing something like that for me?

Nah i don't think so, because you don't think i am worth it in comparison with how much your valued in my heart.