To those that who are still coming back to this page for the hope that i would be regularly updating this page, i'm really sorry to have disappointed you for the past two months or so. Im back again as promised to a certain close friend of mine who has been coming over and whining @ me for not updating! oh wells, time really flies i must say? it has been two months since my last post. The one that i posted after coming back from bangkok, well i thought it would be quite significant to be posting again a day after i return home from bangkok again! things are pretty different this time round, certain events took place which left me wanting more and more and more .. i'm not going to elaborate too much on this but things are happening to me and i find it spooky, for example i'm doing things that i never would in the correct state of mind. I am conversing with others in broken english due to the fact that i tried to adjust my english when i was there with hopes that the thai people would understand my broken english. And yes , i failed to adjust when im back. So much for me claiming myself to be a versatile person! i paused for a short while because i recieved a phone call from llh emphasizing the topics to study for the exams tomorrow. Big thanks i appreciate it =). Okay back to what i was saying earlier yes i failed to adjust myself after coming back. I stated that i was doing things that i would never do in a perfect state of mind, for instance i've been sending smses to this particular person on a regular basis which i would not have done on a different day mainly because its at a overseas sms cost, DO NOT ASK ME WHO for i will not reveal the identity of this person. Looking back on the events, it just freaks me out .. I have a different mindset with regards to what i always had before things are changing and i am afraid of the thoughts that are flying through my head.I have spoken to a few of my buddies and they are telling me to snap out of it, but i can't some are even telling me that i tio " gong tao " it means a hex or something voodoo or a curse or whatever they call it. The explainations are of benefits who do not understand the term " gong tao ". Other than this, im glad to say that things went normally during my trip to thailand this time round, shoppings and more shopping! nothing pretty much to note of as it was such a short trip. And yes , if you were actually wondering if i was thinking about you during this trip .. i would say like everyday okay? but this would be the last thing you would be thinking of so , im just saying this in case it actually means something to you.

The future of my life seems brighter and brighter, with the enrolment to S.H.M.S (Switzerland.Hospitality.Management.School) currently processed with the help of Mr Steven Ang ( A.S.K school of management). Things are looking better for me, directions in life becomes clearer as one gets older yea? Parents and family members are supportive of me be it in terms of finance or motivation. Holidays are being planned, with one heading for taiwan in november and two in january next year to hongkong and thailand respectively. I've begun to look forward to finishing my attachment which is coming my way during the month of May, i must say im excited by what switzerland has to offer during the year of 2010 and the feeling of leaving my friends and family definitely would suck but im sure many would pick the same path i did for a better future if they had a choice? I'm so inspired by what ken's msn shoutout is - no matter how hard life or its path can be , its only a stepping stone for success which its very true. Must say im pretty amazed at how such a motivational sentence spills out from someone like ken.

To those of my friends who are already doing attachment currently and who actually come to my page, i'll like to say its only 6 months! finish it and move on DONT GIVE UP! =) and I really really miss all of you, your laughters .. the times we had together while struggling for an exam or a project or on a holiday/outing i will never forget all of you no matter where i may be or what i may be doing.

Like i've said i might be doing something that its unexpected of me, this is a paragraph just for you miss llh. Its gonna be a little long please bear with me! All i can say is i am still carrying a torch .. A REALLY REALLY BRIGHT ONE AT THAT. Although i might appear cold, uncaring or at times i simply can't be bothered. I just want to let you know if you ever come to this page again that i really do care, and i care a lot its just that i refuse to let it surface to avoid any form of embarassment. I think about you daily, and you're the first person i think about when i get up for my daily routine. I look constantly on my handphone to see if there are calls from you or texts and if there happens to be in events such as today or rather 15 mins ago, it will be enough to make my day. There are times when i just want to know where are you, what you are doing.. just by giving you a call or a sms, but i seriously lack the courage to do so for fear that you might brand me as someone who is irritating. There are times when you are upset and i am most willing to lend you a listening ear or be a punching bag just to make you feel better.. There are times when u you tell me you can't do this and you can't do that or need a solution for something , I really wanted to help or be there for you, but you always reject my offer for any form of assistance. I want so much to let you know how much you mean to me every night, but then again i lack the courage to do so. I want so much for you to hear the phrase " i love you " coming from me before you go to bed. There are so many wants coming from me but unfortunately you don't see that it's a need. ( a lil marketing talk here im sorry but im going crazy over it ) I just want to tell you, in days months or years to come. Im confident things( my feelings ) will stay the way they are like they are now.

P.S: I've written a lot and to those who actually managed to finish reading what i wrote.. thanks !